Until now, I do not know what are the ideal criteria to be a friend of someone. I do not know whether I am a good friend for some people. I tried my best to smile a lot, to give any help, to give suggestion if needed, or to listen to their complaints.
I do not want to set my expectations high for them, that they consider me as one of their besties. However, sometimes I imagined a sweet friendship story in which I become its main character. That kind of imagination turned to be main ideas for my stories back then, and I am lack of that idea now.
I have ever thought that friends should have a mutual recognition between them. That recognition is important in order to understand each other and to give some sense of belonging. Just imagine if you consider A as your friend but A do not think you as his/her friend. It may hurts a bit or a lot, depends on your personality. However, reality is sometimes harsh. I cannot expect too much because those who expect too much tend to be disappointed. Just give more and expect less, that’s the principle which I try to apply in my life. I want to give my best to other people, regardless what I am to them: a friend, an acquaitance, or breadcrumbs (okay, this is getting weird).
For anyone who consider me as your friend, thanks a lot. Thank you for accompanying me in this huge world. It really means a lot.